Wow men are such a trip! Or is it us ladies? So now that I'm single again I'm putting myself back out in the crazy mixed up dating world again. I am doing online dating. Yes, online dating. Is it scary? For who me or the men? It is pretty scary, wondering if they will like me, will I like them or if there is any connection in person. We can IM and talk on the phone but until we meet that is where the real truth comes to play. So yes it can be a little scary but this is life, right?
I'm 44, so I'm older and more wiser than I was 10 years ago when I was doing online dating. Or so I would like to think. It seems much hasn't changed since then but I like to call myself an optimist. Now even though I'm a big girl, I know what I want and need. Yet I get the thugged out, wannabe, don't have a job men or the seriously old men. So now I'm trying to figure out what am I putting out that is attracting the men I don't want.....but I'm starting to get it. These men do not see themselves as I see them. They only see themselves for what they think they are. They believe they are exactly what I need without really getting to know me at all.
I am a big girl and there are occasions I think I'm a super thin, tall supermodel but that is in the comfort of my home. I'm not approaching me like I'm that other woman. I approach them as me, big, beautiful, sexy and funny me. I have been a big girl all of my life and I am pretty comfortable in my skin. I have some bad days where I want to be thinner but I'm still me. I don't hide or try to cover it up. I post full body photos of myself and in my profile I say that I am a big girl. Yet these little tiny men approach me online. I will break their little bodies in two. LOL
I'm 44 and love to go out, laugh and have fun. I am looking for a mature man who shows up to his life everyday, a man who is honest, a man who is funny, a man that makes me laugh and a man that loves new things and places. I would like him to be taller than me and have a job. I'm not asking for a billionaire nor am I asking for Blair Underwood. Either one would be nice but I am looking for the right man for me. Not anyone else's man but the right man for me.
So I will continue my quest for love and fun and let's see where this takes me. I will look for love on the streets of LA and online. Let's see what will come my way. Keep the positive vibes up for me.
Peace and blessings!
Monique Renee
